Being an inquisitive person with a focus on awakening and transformation of consciousness, my attention tends to be guided towards this star that we are and the potential of expressing the totality of our being.
I would love to explore a topic that is one of my favorites around polarity. In this geometry of a star within a circle, again using the most simplistic words, there is a triangle facing up and a triangle facing down enclosed within a circle. This triangle is the expression of our manifested experience of everything we see, hear, feel and know. I have heard time and time again that we live in a dualistic world. To even be more accurate to my experience, I would say that everything in this world is polarized. This tetrahedron represents that nature.
As part of this expression, there is a also the unmanifested potential, the space/circle in which the tetrahedron arises. This space is the absolute Mystery of being, pure and formless but somehow mysteriously gives rise to all form and all felt qualities of essence.
In the winter solstice of 2011, I was taken into a dark place within myself of a deep grief and personal childhood trauma which also included collective and archetypal images of the rejection of the feminine. It was after a period of some very unusual openings that occurred during a retreat. As I laid in bed, pulled deeper and deeper into this experience of grief and agony, yet at the same time feeling held by a larger sense of Self, I prayed for support and a blue brilliant light filled my being. It was an energy of deep love and a transmission that filled my body and brought these words.
"For every action, there is an opposite and equal reaction. If you increase the light, it will flush up the darkness. Polarity is the nature of the universe. When we step into higher octaves of light, we must meet within ourselves lower octaves of darkness. If we push away or deny it, it creates more duality. If we are willing to feel into it, our pain, our woundedness, our 'darkness', it integrates and allows a stabilization to occur. Then there is polarity without duality. Shine out of the eyes of perfect oneness that includes both light and dark."
Light and Dark seems to be one of the major polarities that are occurring in this world. In duality, we judge it saying negative and positive, good and evil, wrong and right. In it’s essence, what I have discovered is that this can also be called Expansion and Contraction. There are many deeply heartbreaking and horrifying things that are happening in the world. How would you think the world would be different if we all were taking responsibility for our shadow: the darkness, pain and trauma within us that we have denied, indulged in and projected out?
In my experience, a polarity that has been difficult to embrace is harmony and conflict. In my past, I tended towards harmony at all cost and this impacted my relationships in a way that called more unconscious conflict by not dealing with or recognizing what I wasn't happy about or what I needed to speak up about in the moment. In my deepening intimacy with anger and the allowance of conflict, I realize that every quality and every emotion serves a purpose. I don't mean the kind of anger that is trying to control or manipulate a situation or an immovable stance, of "I am right". More so using it in a way expresses "This matters to me", helps create a boundary, express a need or cut a pattern in a relationship that isn't serving in order to support a deeper and truer expression of coherent harmony. Just in natural cycles of nature, the creation and destruction serve a purpose. A low burning fire in a forest serves to clean out the debris, weeds, small trees, so that the bigger trees have more space to grow. So, too, can conflict and healthy anger serve its rightful place in any given moment to clean out the extraneous debris within us and serve as a clarifying and enlivening force in our relationships.
In the allowing of whatever it is that we have denied that is still influencing us on a unconscious level, this feeling attention that we offer can create more space for the unconscious energy to become conscious so that the refined quality of each of our emotions have their right relationship in our life. So, whatever we have projected or denied that has become a shadow aspect of our life can be gently included in the whole of our being for a deeper, more intimate, more loving embrace of ourselves and others. And as Martin Luther King so beautifully shared this exquisite truth, "Everything that we see is a shadow cast by that which we do not see."
What polarities shows up in your experience that are significant for you?
What side is more difficult for you to embrace?
What qualities of energy and emotion are present with each side? Can you make intimate contact with each polarity in an open and curious way? What is the deepest realization that you have had in your life? Become fully aware of this. What do you notice if you bring this polarity to be held in the space of this realization?
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